the ever boring blog. :D

Wednesday, January 30

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see not what it was,
not what it is,
but what it will be.

implying that do not look back at the past because it has already taken place and it won't make any difference to determining what you do and who you are now. do not look at the present but at the future because the future is what determines what you will be doing now.

whether a person acheives victory in what he/ she does depends greatly on the state of mind upon entering the competition area or when receiving a particular task. how is one suppose to succeed with the mindset that "i will lose for sure"?

au voirs!

{ freed on 11:52 AM

today's the last enterprise lesson. and guess what we did? we watched movie for the whole day, and it was our faci's idea. of course, he did went through the problem with us.

shall see if i can hit town area later on. mmm.

alright. i can't wait for saturday's water training- sprint sets. and apparently, its only going to be a few girls cos hong and all volunteered for the republic adventure race. woots! no work this saturday! lots of outings coming up. :D

au voirs!

(and yes, i will!)

Monday, January 28

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it has just begun.

right.

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the marathon was a good experience though the rudder's cable screwed up our race, and right at the start, when the horn sounded. no choice, we've got to return back to the beach and adjusted the cable. overtook quite a number of boats but at our first portage, when we're about to launch, the boat slipped and the cable came out again. the 3rd time was at cosy bay when the rescuer didn't even know how to fix it back despite i've given him instructions. then he asked me to sit onto his banana boat and fixed it myself. it's alright that my position on the banana boat looks super wrong, but it is also that it screwed up our race alot. nevertheless, we didn't give up. that damn acsi/ cgs boat.

the cable has failed us, but we did not.

quite a number of competitions are coming, with mr500 is coming in march. training will resume this saturday.

last week of school alrdy. and i'm hungry.
gtg.

au voirs!

Friday, January 25

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marathon will be due in less than 2 days. i am prepared. but no idea what triggered the butterflies in my tummy. i'm just going to give all i have got, and motivate my partner along the way. let's just make it a good start for all of us. all out, not to fail ourselves and to bring glory to our school. SA!

the thought of all the fun events that we will be having after the marathon just set me feeling so high. yet, let's get done with the marathon first. else, i wouldn't dare to settle my mind on it. i'm so going to sleep early the night before the race. infact, way early. then wake up somewhere in the middle of the wee hours to take breakfast and nap before going kallang. got to be there at 7am. alright. my butterflies are somewhat triggered again. no matter what, i shall aid my front paddler with co-ordination and balancing the boat well. utilise each stroke. it will all be worth it.

shall head for home straight and rot and prepare for tml's race preparation.

CHEERIOS!

au voirs!

Wednesday, January 23

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6 days of continuous training is finally over. not that it was super "fierce" or what. but just the mental and physical exhaustion. my right wrist is starting to hurt a little and i'm taking alot of care of it. which is why i skipped the pull-ups on monday.
yesterday evening was super cold at kallang. shivering mad, showered in darkness, with the guys screaming and shouting like kena raped. tsk tsk. decided to head for home straight as there's dinner at home. couldn't resist the temptation of breads at sembawang station so i bought 2. i guess hunger triggers the food temptation huh. got home and had dinner. i intended to finish the breads and the pack of atap seeds i bought the day before but i guess i just knocked out, without even submitting my rj. tsk.

wenkok is jio-ing classmates for blood donation now, saying that 10 CE points will be given. like AS IF! HAHA! if that's the case, the blood donation station will be overwhelmed by now. it feels good be be wearing better to school, at least not in sports shorts and t-shirts. teehees! :D

corporate social responsibility was what enterprise module is covering today. its good to know that established companies are participating in CSR but on the other hand, it is being less off from their annual taxable income, which benefits them as well. so there's always this give and receive balance going on. but who is willing to just give and don't receive?

gtg back to my lessons. laptop screens are giving me headaches alrdy.

au voirs!

ps.4 more days to NCM

Monday, January 21

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its been 4 days of continuous training already. and i'm mentally more exhausted than physically. but i'll press on. including today's gym and tml's water, that makes it 6 days of continuous training.

saturday
did k1 with partner because we didn't have enough k2s. it was alright initially, with partner beside me. after the 3 round or so, i saw partner rowing back to the pontoon. and as the k2s were all ahead of me, it felt so helpless and hopeless to be paddling alone. though so, i can't give up. portage seems endless. capsized by the first bejamin shear's bridge due to the wave of the turning dragonboat. though so, they helped me up. on my following round there, i was caught in the waves of 2-3 dragonboats. it was super wavy. and the dragonboaters looked at me as though i was potential to capsize again, as though ready to help me up. LOL. but i slapped the waters damn hard, numerously, and went off.

work. shagged.

sunday
adeline and i went. the only girls. capsized by the benjamin shear's again. saw the nationals and they help us up. but the boat was super heavy, with the water in it. but we decided to empty it at our portage round- the following round. :D

work. home with derrick. (:
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the marathon is this coming sunday. let's just take very good care of ourselves as we can't afford to get injured of fall ill. my back feels paralysed whenever i get up or turn on my bed. these mornings, when i wake up, my right ankle seems to be sprained. but it's alright after that. i need to take care of my right wrist as well. jo, lend me the guard please!
we're getting more and more used to the distance of the marathon already. lets just do it well with no regrets!
afraid and nervous are redundant emotions as one is afraid to lose. hence, paddle hard and win. only then will you not be afraid and nervous. [sounds familiar huh? u should know where this is being adapted from.]

shall take a real good chiller after the marathon!

REPUBLIC CANOE! SA-SA-SA! OH YEAH?! HOO-RAH!

:D:D

au voirs!

Friday, January 18

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i dragged my ass up this morning and dialed ben's number when i intended to call jo that i'll be late. should have kept the reporting time for the training to 8.30, as intended. for by the time we got there (10am), it was scorching badly. got down into the water and started our marathon distance. waves from the speed boats, duck tours, rocky waves, etc. fortunately, hong and i handled them well. but we still need to improve alot cos i admit that there were times whereby the boat seems stuck onto the water surface and it's not gliding at all. partner, let's pull our hearts out! not as in literally luh.

portage wasn't easy. boat was heavy, feet sinks in with every step, shells all over the place. my hip was cramping and paddling with both of my feets numb, aint easy at all. my butt doesn't hurt at all, but my feet and back does.

i'm feeling so warm all over. due to the sun, most prolly. shawn came over for his sweets when we're waiting for the bus. had BK and the few of us were gobbling the burgers down while some had subway. was looking for gatorate's powder at ntucs and its not even available. ): oh oh oh. nutrisoy's soya bean contains the highest amount of protein among other brands. i did a comparison.

if there's ever a pill that replenishes energy derived from exhaustion or sleep, i did be the first one to take it.
sleepy.

kallang is nice. but not during low tides. how the hell did the fishes die in kallang? is the water that unsuitable for survival? these dead fishes were like thrown sparingly all over the water luh.

oh.. i feel wavy still.

au voirs!

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17jan : water training
18jan: skipping school to attend training (training was never held during lesson hours. -wink wink-). chilling session, hopefully.
19jan: water training plus work
20jan: water training plus work
21 jan: land training

heh heh. organised eh? or rather, packed schdule.

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that would make up to 5 days of continuous training. friday and sunday are both optional. but why not train extra? there's not much time left.

weather at kallang was good today. teehees. but, the water seems choppy. well, that's kallang. and as expected, i was on singles, so was ah hong. i started to feel easy on the choppy water but OH! the sunset was glaring. tsk. things were going fine, till i reaches this area opposite the beach. and god damn it. this mother mofo was fishing at that area and the line was right infront of me. before i realised it, my boat was moving into it, like running towards the finishing line of a race. of course, i capsized luh. was so pissed that i stared at the fisher. freaked out, was i, as well. fortunately, the water condition was much better. with oil spillages over at shear's bridge only. and on my second round, i paddled a further distance away from that area to avoid remaking of history. but then i saw the fishing line right beside me, i still got freaked out. away.. away i paddle from that mofo!

dead fishes. dead cats has yet to come. i did like to see one. going back on doubles tml. (: no more air flight tickets from anyone of us.

i feel like chilling.. pleeeeaasssssseeeeeeeeee. ):

its 1.25am.

shall be turning in.

au voirs!

Wednesday, January 16

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once in a while or oftenly, it's good to be reminded that i have to control my spendings. because it's like you know that you have to, you know that its a must. yet at times, i will just go ahead with it. no one knows when will those rainy days come and it's always better to have extra cash with you. forgo those material needs when you already have the basics, isn't it good enough already?

be contented. be contented with what you already have and not ask for more unnessecary ones.

i know saving up is important. and i shall see that my bank balance increase to a minimal amount of $XXX.

desires, wants, NEEDS! i don't need alot of things right now.. come to think of it, i have very good self-control when i was in sec sch. i did always restrict myself when it comes to buying stuff and food. and i can do the same now. humans are not judged in terms of possessions. it's what you make out of what you have. i feel ashame of myself at times. ashame that i still could act and think maturely at this age. i'm turning 18. yet, i still have to be reminded of this.
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science UT4 tml. saw a dress at details and it looked so pretty. but i'll give it some thought cos i don't need it. might as well save up till quite a sum first then make one or 2 purchases. but of course, only when i have the extra extra extra cash for it.

the overseas trip is triggering my excitement. but of course, let's get done with the canoeing marathon which falls on the 27 jan. the journey ain't going to be easy at all. yet, being able to go down in doubles is a bliss. the front paddler knows that no matter what, she can't give up as she has to lead on the back paddler and set down what she wants the back paddler to do. the back paddler has got the front paddler and no matter what she can't stop as the back paddler has to follow and aid the front paddler to acheive speed and motivate the front paddler and constantly remind her. being there for one another, supporting each other throughout the whole distance and having the mindset "for you,i will..", is good enough.

i have neglected much, with my busy schedule.
acheiving balance? i'll try.

au voirs!

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I DARE YOU TO..

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my arms were aching- biceps and triceps. in addition, my lets as well. skipped school yesterday and i had the best sleep ever. mom was asking me why am i not going to school yet and i said my grades for the module permits me to skip one more time. teehees.

first weekday water training at kallang yesterday. had CAT1 yesterday and we're thinking that training would prolly be cancelled. by the time we got to kallang, it was already 5 plus. when things were ready, we went down at 6. water was calm after the rain but the water condition FREAKED me out. and i mean, by alot. its alright if there're alot of fallen leaves and branches on the water. but there were hell lots of them, in big patches some more. and i cut through on big patch of it. there were oil spillages and the water underneath the bridge by the cosy bay was stinky, plus muddy. i was so afraid. afraid of capsizing. but also because my left leg was already numb when i went down for the first round. i swear i was trembling in the boat.

almost died in my kayak and went to heaven.

if seletar is not as clean as macritchie, kallang is much worst off. low tide waters are really freaky. trash points all over the place.. nvm. i'll have to overcome my fear. just consider it as just my luck if i were to capsize at the wrong spots. ):

water training tml. shall see if i can skip friday's lessons for training. this is the first time that such a request has been brought up. weekends training, then monday's gym. that makes it 4 days of training continuously. okay. i wanna chill.

met up with HPT clique yesterday to celebrate jack's birthday. had kenny roger's. :D

it feels great to have them around. at least i know that i'd always have a group of buddies to fall back onto.

wednesdays lessons are just so great. right. i'm making a trip to town later on.

au voirs!

Monday, January 14

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shifted boats to kallang last friday.
the first thing we did when we got down at the water venture at kallang, is to check out the water condition and all of us were bending over the rock walls, over looking at the waters there.

adeline: EH!! got fish!!
me: *sniff sniff* eh. got smell sia..

saturday
met up with some of the girls at dobby and took bus to kallang. got there before 0745, which is freaking early cos i woke up at 5 plus? took quite a long time before we get down onto the water as we need to fix in the footrests and seats. no doubt, we're making a fuss when we're on the water cos definitely, seeing the water condition there, you won't want to capsize, even if you have to. was on k2 with hong. coach brought us arnd the training route. then after a round or 2, i took raptor k1. capsized once, fortunately. i was helping hong up when she capsized and this dragonboat actually asked if we need help. was kind of suprised cos it has never happened to us before. oh. and the ntu db-ters are hot! AHAHAHAHA.

kallang will be good- going out of our comfort zones, unlike paddling in reservoirs where the "sky is much smaller". paddling at different places is a brand new learning experiences and it allows us to adapt to different water conditions. the weather there was quite humid that you'd feel like having a dip in the water. and of course, when we capsize, its not because we want to dip in the water but it's because we lost our balance. 50cents per capsize eh. but thinking of how dirty the water is, you won't want to capsize.

work after that.

sunday
didn't go training. heard from jo that they saw dead cats and fish. and derek told me that he named the dead cats that he saw when he paddled pass them last time. so i guess there should be quite a number of dead cats there. but how the hell did they get in? jump in?

headed for work. bought another top. :D
town area was kind of pack, but not as much as on saturday.
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coach mentioned that he found a corpse there.

adeline: later you see huang na floating on the water ah..

-_-"

rmb? she's the china girl who's body got dismembered. internal joke. LOL.

kallang-a-lang~

:D

au voirs!

Thursday, January 10

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photos up for NYE!! cheerios!

waiting for bev, and keeping a good lookout for her family as well cos we need to hide shawn. and i ended up being called "weird" by her bro. -_-"'

okay. shawn's over elated about bev's return. hahah.

GOTCHA! you saw that! it kept us entertained the entire night. :D

awwh. those 2 in black and their wide smiles..

waiting for the skytrain.

after the fireworks.

notice the resemblence?

TADA!! our grp picture!

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right. had UT today, the shortest UT i've taken and the entire test is only 15 marks. network was still quite slow today but better. we had a court case for cognitive today and my team was the defense. argued and rebutted alot but we had fun. :D training got cancelled today and i don't know the exact reason. walked arnd cwp and was in RSH for close to an hour deciding on whether to purchase the reebok shorts which was on sale and which design to pick. urgh. finally decided on the flat cutting, earth brown. :D

shifting boats to kallang tml. shall be drinking from the water bag that hong had bought for me. :D
let's whack harder during training. we want more than just to paddle well.

au voirs!

*3 more weeks before end of AY's break. 17 days to NCM!

we're refering to the water bag. LOL.

Wednesday, January 9

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thinking back at swimming part on monday's training, we had all finished our 10 laps and as a handful of us are gathered at the side, i realised that benjamin looks so much and especially like a lizard in his goggles, with the tip of the eye being stretched and him stressing his eyes to focus on his eyesight.

let's all take a look at how he looks.

HHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!
HOW'S THAT MAN?!

it was purely out of entertainment. he knows about it too. ^^
credits to adeline.

resources

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shall i get a cake or alcohol for my dad?

au voirs!

Tuesday, January 8

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today's lesson was on visual basic codes- the only part of all modules that i suck at. the best part is, i heard that the remaining few lessons are all going to be covering vb codes. ROARS!! couldn't really focus in class bcos i can't contribute much. managed to catch a wink during second breakout, in my jacket with the hoodie tightened and shoebag as pillow, curling up at a corner. how unglam. but it feels kind of good too. and i was woken up by yuexin, with the fries she had got for me in her hands. :D:D:D

water training after school. balance was much better and i did "leave better than how we started out". but still, a long way to go. ah neo made me capsized when he hit my paddle. how nice. and he said i hit his elbow. debreif after training and i've brought home 8 mosquitoe bites.

jo: are we going overseas?
kengwi: yes, we're going to spend the school's money.

and everyone was going "WOOHOO!!". but it did probably be in march. our season is coming, with alot of competitions coming up. my entire bag is aching. i feel it with every twist. ):
but i like the feeling though- satisfied. yet it leaves me feeling uncomfy when i wake up- i'll feel like going back to sleep and not moving.

UT on thursday. dad's birthday tml! i think i did be the only one singing the birthday song loh. its been always like that. hahhaa!

gtg.
au voirs!

{ freed on 9:46 AM

swimming 10 laps yesterday was good.

but i woke up in a shock. my shoulder area hurts and i thought i had injured my shoulder blades. how am i going to paddle?

well, its just muscle aches, fortunately. :D

au voirs!

Monday, January 7

{ freed on 11:05 PM

usually on my way home, i'd just cut through the HDB flats as its a much shorter route, unless its kind of late at night. yet today, i decided to take the longer way home- the pedestrain pathway along the main roads. no particular reason why, i just feel like walking abit longer before reaching home. maybe it was the songs in my phone that i'm quite addicted to these few days. maybe it just that i dread reaching home earlier? but i guess its the initial reason. walking at slower paces, listening to favourite songs and paying more attention to my surroundings doesn't seem like a bad idea at all.

and indeed, it did allow me to observe better and think more. i saw a cab making a turn out of the parking lot. the image felt so real. not that the cab i saw was fake or what but it just felt so real, so close. its like i've never paid close attention to it before. looking up at the blocks of flats around me, along the road sides, those lighted-up apartments made me wonder "what are the people in these units doing at this moment?". looking at kids crossing the zebra-crossing struck the thought of "what's their aim in life? what do they dream of becoming?".

then it suddenly dawned on me that last night, as i was walking along the same road after work, listening to the same songs with the environment around me being exactly the same, i was feeling tired and i wasn't actually thinking of which way i'm walking. it was my subconciousness that "brought" me home. since when did this subconciousness existed?

i began to think of my 17 years so far. how was it well spent? what are the acheivements that i've acheived, till this stage of my life? what are the mistakes that i've truly regretted? when are the times that i've enjoyed myself alot? were there consequences involved? have i treated my loved ones good enough or were they taken for granted at times? was i always thinking of being treated well, and not doing onto others what they deserve as well? when were the times that i was really selfish? what are my priorities in life? did i neglect others in the process as well?

now, i give thanks for being able to grow up in this family that i'm living in now, though not perfect, but it ain't bad. entering PHS for my secondary school life wasn't my wish but for that decision made by my mum, i got to know great people in there and at least my upper sec years were not wasted because of HPT. i give thanks. being able to work in heeren, though work is slack and boring at times, my colleagues and friends made my day, always. i give thanks. studying in RP definitely isn't my first choice but it wasn't the last as well and because of RP, i'm now in canoeing, doing something that i never thought i'd be interested in and training with great team mates. i give thanks for that.

so tell me, life can be carved out by yourself but isn't it about the people around you that makes the greatest difference of all? hence, they ought to be treated well also. you know, people like melissa are the neutrals when it comes to cliquing up. but it is because of people like them that we sort of derive joy from suaning them. i swear the suanning is purely to disturb her only. haha. and most of the time, she ends up laughing as well.

awwwh. people people people.

my dad just came to me and told me not to get a cake on the day after tml. he patted my head. & i realised that it was his birthday. how could i have forgotten?

despite the reminders, i'll still get a small one for you. :D though its only the 3 of us left, with my brother still away in brunei for his ns. ):

right. there goes my reflection. (:
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school's kind of messed up today, with the network being super duper slow and cracking our brains over the science problem. it was our sec4 physics- electromagnetic induction. haha! but all seems to be returned to the teacher alrdy. had training after school. ran, pull-ups and swam. gosh. it feels great to have swimed!

training again tml.

au voirs!

Sunday, January 6

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2007 World Canoe Kayak Championships K1 500m

check this out!

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i miss macritche..

i miss the 1km lanes, i miss the world class pontoon, i miss the eyecandies there, i miss the clean water that we'll use to drink, i miss our old shed, i miss the usual washing up routines at the taps at the toilets (they have no showers at macritche), i miss the squeesy feeling on saturdays when there're alot of people waiting to launch or get up from their boats, i miss the times when u're not afraid to capsize bcos there're so many paddlers arnd you, i miss the small lagoon...

i miss macritche..

yet, i'm alrdy getting use to seletar alrdy. what to do?
seaweeds and muddy waters are the highlights of lower seletar. water snails are like the decos, the pink slimy eggs are like ^%&#$uy2@! (eeky!) and those people fishing are like the threats there, plus the big machine that clears the seaweeds.

that's lower seletar. but lower seletar is good. so is macritche.

au voirs!

{ freed on 11:53 AM

as usual, has been busy with training and work for the past few days, else i wld be at home watching videos. http://mysoju.com allows you to watch korean dramas or movies for free luh. CHEERIOS!!

had training ytd and adeline will say that i pangseh-ed her but i'd say she pangseh-ed me. different pairings this time round. and i was on single. took tiger initially but coach asked me to change into raptor with choung meng. i was thinking "chui liao lah.. think i'll capsized at the pontoon luh..". but it turned out better than the tiger. prolly bcos the comain for raptor is smaller and it limits my butt movements and all u can do is to sit there, and just sit there loh. didn't really use the anti-slips but i guess its perfectly fine. just a little bit of after-effects.

PT after training and coach was saying, "my grandmother can do more pull-ups than you.. my grandmother can run faster than you..". like LOL! and i said,"next time bring your grandmother along okay?". HAHA. coach has become more humorous after his marriage and i guess we all know why. haha! he was exceptionally happy yesterday. and of course, it wasn't the first time he has mentioned that but it was a long time ago.

headed to work after lunch and my nose started to drool. and its so uncomfortable. so bad that i left for home early. if only i can stuff ear-plugs into my nostrils to absorb the moisture, how nice..

didn't attend training today bcos of my runny nose. work later on. shall dry my wet gear now.

damn. it's starting to drool again. i need a pill for it.

au voirs!

Wednesday, January 2

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cut hair was done just right! :D and we did love to go back there for our next haircut. walked arnd bugis, lunched at parco's pasta and headed to centerpoint's POSB to cash out my cheque, spend my remaining $5 voucher at marks and spencer and redeemed my bengawan solo's voucher as well. it's nice to pay for something using a piece of paper, eh? LOLS.

i bought 2 chewy junior at parco and now i understand why it's called Chewy Junior- bcos it is chewy, and that why it is chewy- bcos it's "lao hung"! or we say, oxidised. haha. but okay lah. it has the donut concept though.

thanks joanne for the day! and i apologise for being late, again. :X

fishy's rule no. XXX - will be late, but within 15mins time frame.

heh.

but i guess i exceeded it slightly.

school has reopened and i see many uniformed students arnd me. come to think of it, i do look smart in uniforms. :D i was a councilor okay! at least for a year..

training tml. :D

right.
au voirs!

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oh oh OH!!!

HEH.

right. finally, i spent part of my robinsons voucher. was at the robinsons at raffles on new year's eve and took the only pair of small sized running shorts there, which happened to be mens. but it's alright. but the cashier told me that i wasn't allowed to use the voucher to pay for items below the value of the voucher, which wasn't the case. thanks to hong, the voucher was being brokened down into smaller values and i took a bottle in addition. 5 bucks left.

had steamboat across the road, opposite to the swensens at bugis junction with adeline, joanne, lala, shawn, hanting & alan. the food there is really good. and the milk soup tasted very sweet. :D $21.30/pax but it was worth cos the environment is clean, with free flow of drinks and ice cream- the RUM AND RAISIN!!! :D:D:D:D

walked arnd, and took train to changi airport to fetch beverly. everyone were so engaged in the "OK sign game". LOLs. we kept a lookout for bev's family and for bev's arrival, making sure that shawn is well hiddened. but he got found out in the end. HAHA! melvin, hong and ah neh joined us. went to marina for the fireworks, we didn't count down actually. everywhere was damn packed and one gets irritated easily. the senior left and the rest went over to melvin's place to drink. ah neh brought along her absolute raspberry, which smells good but didn't taste like how it smelled. i was tipsy and my vision start to change abit, with adeline looking extra feminine, ah neh looking extra fair and round, joanne looking kind of big, etc etc. HAHA! and i start to giggle to myself. that's when i know to pause for a while. walked home at 4 plus with ahneh and jo walking me to the junction. thanks!

woke up at 1 plus in the noon and prepared for work. haircut at chapter2 later on, with joanne.

au voirs!