bob was asking us about how we feel towards pol-ite, after our training.
and lala was saying that she once told coach that she is feeling nervous. and coach's reply was,"you're nervous because you're afraid that you can't win."
it was so true.
frankly, tell me. now that we're only left with less than 10 junior girls in the team than the initial 20 or so, who doesn't want to represent the school for pol-ite? who doesn't? even i myself wants to be selected for pol-ite. be it a kind of acknowledgement or what, but i want to bring home medals as well. i want to prove to my parents what i've been doing so far in my training and my commitment was worth it. yet, i am so nervous, so afraid. bob told us that we'll be having the selection for pol-ite this week. today's 6km run was taken into consideration and our timing was taken. 35:45. yes, i know that's considered slow. and running has been something that i always dread since young. i have never run long distances in my secondary school life, except for napfa tests and i'm sure not among the fastest. it was till i got into canoeing that i get myself running, because i have to, i have to train my stamina. 7.5 laps. each lap, i was pyschoing myself so much, so much. "come on, 4 more laps, 4 more laps! 3 more! just hang in there. it will soon be over! okay okay! just the last 1.5 laps. sprint your way off at the last o.5lap!! go go go! you can do it!". it was so hard on me. running is not hard at all. but being judged with running as one of the criterias, does seem challenging. its the mental that's hard.
time trial this saturday. give it all out le. this may or may not be my first competition in RP. if i wanted to earn that medal, i have got to make it happen. at least it gives me a chance. water training on tuesday. shall be hitting gym this thursday and going for optional sunday training till 24nov, canoeing pol-ites.
only 4 polys will be participating. and the standard for females isn't high in singapore, than to say in polys. but there will always be competition.
mental + strength + endurance + commitment.
gtg. auvoirs!
