well,
perhaps i've made a mistake for the past year.
if only i have placed you people as my number one piority or what,
perhaps it wouldn't be like this now.
if only i had wanted to spend more time with you people,
perhaps it wouldn't be like this now.
if only i had joined you guys more often after school,
perhaps it wouldn't be like this now.
then i will be able to join you people in all of your conversations.
when u people are talking and i wanted to join in,
its like there's something that you people didnt want to let me know,
and whenever i tried to ask more into it,
you people just didnt want to let me know or perhaps, its troublesome explaining to someone who doesn't have any idea about the matter or perhaps, i just dont deserve your trust anymore.
it feels like i am not one of you guys anymore..
this feeling is bad.
if only i had known more about you people,
perhaps i wouldn't be left out.
but who will ever bother about how i feel? they are just happy with themselves that sometimes they neglect others. yalalala. i know its tiring to be bothering about other people's feeling all the while. thats why i said "who will ever bother about my feeling?"
i've been looking for jobs these past few days and i just need them to call and confirm with me. i just need something to tie myself down and stop myself from wandering away into my thoughts.
au voirs.
