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Tuesday, October 31
{ freed on 6:22 PM

woah. hah. i didn't really felt blogging. but i still did. so anyway, i hadn't been joining the usual grp for grp study since last thursday or so. couldn't really rmb. so i did maths at home and have yet to take a single step out of my door since then. science biology is tml. the first theory paper so far, excluding chinese. urgh. and its really boring to stay at home. i've long finished the ten years series on biology so i'll just have to go through the facts all over again to make sure i get them right. how i missed the feeling of group studies, so that i'll have the mentality that since im out to study, i will have to. thursday's reserved for accounts wtih pet cheong, carolyn, amira and anet. urghh. i wish i can just strangle the british setters..

in less than 3 weeks, the grand "O" will be over. "sighs" the word to describe how i am feeling now and i guess it will continue to be, for the next 3 weeks. i slept at 4 in the morning. haha. i wanted to go through biology but ended up having the urge to draw something. so i took out some paper and began drawing on them but i just couldn't draw what i want. thats how i wasted 2 hours or so.

and, i think i hate televisions. seriously. because i get irritated and upset at myself for watching tv programmes, especially dramas, at this period of time. fortunately i have already watched princess hours long time ago. but the feeling still persist, even when i am using the computer right now.

ahhh. boring.

chandra rocks!

i wanna abstain from using computer and watching tv.

i get irritated with myself when i'm not studying. i think i'm experiencing stress. hah. what if i break down? no way man! hah.

au voirs!


Wednesday, October 18
{ freed on 10:27 PM

i went to school library to study again. i guess it really is enjoyable studying in school too, perhaps because the others are there too but it is a nice feeling leh. especially when you have doubts and u ask the others, and they themselves dont know the answer as well and come up with some kind of lame explanation. weemin was singing a song that he composed himself that goes like,"V-A-G-I-N-A..", with some kind of tititatitoo sound, because jiahui was studying the chapter on human reproduction.

today was okay i guess. i intended to be in school earlier when the library just open but i decided to sleep more. it was through the phone with kailing that i got to know that they were having pac "extra lessons". never jio~ but nevermind for i didnt intend to study pac today also. mornings are meant for maths only. but i did biology instead cos i decided to finish up my bio. so like that lorh.. left at arnd 5.30 when the library is closing. then i went to mos burger to get tiramisu and took 859 home with wilson. the cake was nice. but it was small too.

science practical tml. the actual one. so all the best then. hope i can do well for practical then it will at least help in my science.

au voirs!


Friday, October 13
{ freed on 6:16 PM

appointment with petrina and carolyn yesterday was cancelled because pet cheong forgot to tell us that we are suppose to go there and ask her questions. so she had to prepare some stuff for us to do but she didnt have enough time to do so the appointment was cancelled.

i was thinking that my study plan was going to be ruin two days in a row but carolyn asked me out to study with her and debbie foo. since i cant really study at home and will always end up having headaches, i agreed to it. it was at this serangoon country club's study room. it was my first time there but according to instructions, i took 73/136 from the amk bus-stop infront of cash converters and i'm supposed to get down the next stop after i see a esso and shell. and so, when the bus is turning right, i saw a shell from afar and i quickly alighted at the next stop. but something told me that i got down at the wrong stop because the whole area is full of terrace houses. and i believe the huge 24 hour prata house is the jalan kayu de prata house. the sign board is like huge lah. as though the owner was so afraid that people dont know that shop is prata shop like that. so i called debbie and wandered around that area first and finally, we came to a conclusion- halt a 73/136 bus and ask the uncle. so i went to the bus-stop opposite and asked the uncle from 73,"uncle, does this bus goes to chomp chomp?"

uncle:"chomp chomp ahh..? its the bus stop opposite. arnd 2-3 stops then u will reach liao.".

so i got down too early. but i would think that getting down early is so much better than getting down later. but as i thank the uncle and the bus went by, i realised something- that uncle was the one driving the 73 that i boarded initially and now its like going back to amk!! so ma lu lah, as what debbie had said. so i boarded 73 or dunno 136, again. this time, the driver was a female. she's so damn nice lah. before you even scan your ezlink, she already greeted you "good afternoon" and its with a big cheerful smile :DDD! mmm. nice attitude. i like! after a stop, i saw the esso and shell that i was suppose to see. what a dumb mistake lah. so i got down two stops later and the 2 girls came to fetch me. and so, debbie was the one who can bring us in.. member leh.. cannot mess arnd with her sia. she mgiht complain about us then the security ban us from entering. okays. thats lame.

the study room is like darn cool lah. because its darn quiet and there's a toilet there and they provide free drinking water?? HAHA. can say that its really effective there. then debbie's friend came. another joker. he is seriously a joker man. there was this question on how to demagnetise a magnetic stell bar using a solenoid and since i suck at physics, i couldnt answer his question. carolyn wasnt sure of the answer too and debbie, the only one among us who finished studying physics already was away on the phone. so that joker went to ask this st nic girl sitting at a table behind us.

st nic girl: are you asking me?
joker: yah. (then he went on blabbering about his question)
st nic girl: erm. i dont take physics.

HAHA. thats a damn hilarious. and i heard that he did the same thing the day before too. then there came this woman in red. according to debbie and friend, that woman's bitch. she always goes tsk-tsk-ing when people in the study room make the slightless noise. she even scold kids for making noise. and yes, it is kids. and i heard that the reception or what received many complaints about her too. whatever. i left at 8 and debbie sent me off to the bus-stop. :DD

enough of yesterday already. now, its today.

graduation service was simply great. got various simple but sweet and heart warming gifts. the cookies from janelle was tasty man. i shall get her to make somemore for me.. heh heh heh. yup. went through the whole service and the mdm soew's talk was the most dreadful one. there were basically a few aims that she's been trying to convey to us in ur arnd 1 hour talk which far exceeded the timeplan- treasure ur life, have confidence in urself, forgive those who trepassed against you, live life to the fullest and treasure ur loved ones before you regret. sort of like that lah. the speech by andy was the best lah. totally hilarious. perhaps he can consider giving advices to our dear principal. then it was the photos slideshow. HAHA. cheyenne was the main highlight of the very first page. HAHAHAH. but the whole slideshow was kind of short. perhaps due to the shortage of photos they have. i was still thinking that they will dig out those ugly pictures and put up there lah.. heng lah. okays. when my pic came up, cathi was like "eh.. got ur picture..". and all i replied was,"wtf. chee by lah.". sorry cathi. i didnt mean it lah. i was just shocked that my pic appeared there. sorry :X

so anyway, camwhores alot and helped ppl camwhored too. the guys from H,I,J, you know, those usual mischevious ones, were doing a formation of "MENG!" on the parade square and taking pictures. weiliang and the soccer ball forms the exclaimation mark. HAHA. shall get the picture from one of them soon and post it up. took pictures with the 4i guys at the foryer and weihan and company, did the gay pose and the "0123456" pose. not bad ahh, eve. that pose has somehow become a favourite among the guys already. left at arnd 1 plus with yuenchen to northpoint to get soemthing done and i told the 2g girls to call me when they've decided where to go. sobs. in the end, no one called. i msged them instead. and so, they've split into two grps. one at NYJC's open house and the other at PS. didnt joined the grp at PS in the end because PS is too far and i thought they would be going to safra. missed the bowling man.

so that's about all for the grad service. i shall get pictures from all my sources asap and post the up. heh heh..

au voirs!

to all 4integrity studs,
you've guys have really made a difference in my upper secondary school life. regardless whether it is as irritating as mousey, as gay as boulder and yuxuan, as "don't want face" as kaixiang, as loud as huisian, and the list goes on, all of you have indeed made a difference in my life. the little actions that you people do during lessons (including all the rapings) has left a deep impression in me. no matter where i am, what i am doing or when is the time, i am constantly reminded by everyone of you. thanks for giving me good memories. and for this, i will definitely not regret coming to PHS. may we do our very best in the "O" levels that only takes place once in ur life!
i LOVE 4integrity2006!!

signing off,
with the utmost love and sincerity :DD

the gay side of them. HAHA.


our classroom.

to 2904,

of course, you guys have made a difference in me and it was since the day we know each other.the 2 to 4 years that we have spent with each other have left me with even more memories to live with. pardon me for not spending more time with you guys. perhaps my presence may not even be important but often, i do want to spend time with you all, go out together and of course, have fun together. HAHA. but one thing i still cant really tolerate is the undecisiveness in making decisions. HAHA. but thats also the trademark of 2904 (: you leave traces in me. may we still be in contact even as we graduate.

signing off,

with love and still love :DD!



Wednesday, October 11
{ freed on 3:19 PM

it's a hot and humid afternoon again.

i was planning to go for group study with vanessa and pinwen, at least vanessa can help me with my maths. but she msged me this morning saying that she's down with a fever and cant come today. so the whole thing is like cancelled because vanessa was supposed to be the one teaching the both of us. vanessa, you spoilt my study plan!!! hah. now, im at home, printing notes.

i haven stepped out of my apartment for almost 2 days. the feeling is bad. and when i am in the momentum to study, i always get a headache. probably because i always sleep late and wake up late?? that's very demoralising. and im sick of the tv already. so, i wish for this headache to go away so i can really get down and finish my studying.

im having a date with petrina and carolyn tml, in school at 2pm, to clear whatever doubts we have on pac. the thing is i haven really study on pac yet. wish she can just give some chim chim worksheets and ask the two of us to finish in front fo her.

Os is approaching every single second. im feeling fearful already. everyday, i'll check at my calender, with the dates of the papers written on them, and i will think to myself "actually, there's a few papers only..". my science practical is on 19th october, first shift. that means we have to wait for the second shift to finish before we can leave the school compound. sian. how this time round, the practical will be interesting. leave the lipase out please. it stinks. heh heh.

everybody must have been busy mugging already.. sighs. and i am still printing out my notes.

au voirs?
au voirs!


Sunday, October 8
{ freed on 6:48 PM

we have always been saying that once we graduated from PHS, the school is going to be left with freaks of the younger generation- C.A.B.s and C.A.L.s. at least, there's still a minority who doesn't and that's something worth celebrating for.

as i scan through blogs, i realised that there are many who really need help in their language, desperately. and im so relieved that this girl isnt in our school. here it goes.

-> OURR LOVE ~~ MUACKKIESS dear,, l0ve y0u l0tts l0tts.. i dunns wanns leave y0u..untill i die.. deardear als0 mustt l0ve darlinqq l0tts l0tts w0rr.. hahas.. darlinqq dunns wanns anythinqq. justt wanns everlastinqq l0ve w0rr..MUACKKZZ... huqq.. i have al0tt 0f mei ha0 de hui yi withh y0u.. u r the 0nlyy deardearqtt s0 manyy mem0ries de.. hahas..

since i couldn't copy the text directly from her blog, i pasted all in microsoft words and selected out. you should have seen those underlined in red. they were countless. plus, how can one mistaken a "g" as a "q"? did they like switch the keys of "g" and "q"? sighs. i understand how many people out there long for everlasting love, including myself. but i dont think i will wish for everlasting love at my age, and making those love pledges like "i'll love you till the sky is high, till tsunami come, till titanic sinks, etc". okay, fine. i came up with those ridiculous stuff.

but dont you think it is silly when you say things like "i will love you forever", when you know in your heart that you obviously won't? i can almost foresee that when they breakup, the girl will be crying like shit. worst senario. what if the girl is the one who changes her mind about the relationship? all these promises will become useless eventually. but maybe to them, that period of relationship seems like a everlasting-wannabe.

i think i will not believe in my bf if he says, "i'll love you forever". but i definitely will believe my husband. heh heh. alright. all the best to these hopeless generation of C.A.B.s and C.A.L.s.

au voirs!


Saturday, October 7
{ freed on 10:08 PM

oh man! KAIXIANG IS A SUPER DUPER PUPER NICE GUY LAHS!! he actually agreed to help me print out 4 sets of maths papers from different schools, including the answers. so thats like 124 pages. of course, nothing is free. i told him to charge me for it. and i am so gonna treat him to a drink, although its just a drink. thanks kaixiang. you are super duper puper nice!! i cant say i love him but i thank him from the bottom of my heart.

now, my heart's inside out already.

and i made a stupid mistake. i thought it was boulder and since previously when he agreed to help me print out some document (although in the end, i got someone to help me instead.), i decided to ask him for help again.

me: hey boulder.
me: can do me a favour?
the one whom i tot was boulder: WTF
me: ?
me: you "wtf" for what?
(feeling offended).
T.O.W.I.T.W.B: u dunno what u did?
T.O.W.I.T.W.B: "hey boulder"
T.O.W.I.T.W.B: u dere mah?
me: how wld i know what i did?
me: u nv say how i know?

taking a second look, i realised i was wrong.

me: eh.
me: f.
me: sorry lah.
me: i didnt see clearly enough. tot u were boulder cos got "boo".
me: u still there?
kaixiang: boulder also got "boo" meh?
kaixiang: really meh?

anw, it was just a stupid mistake. i actually made a mistake chatting online. and it is mistakening someone as someone else. so dumb. anws, once again, kaixiang is a super duper puper nice guy!!


au voirs!!


{ freed on 6:45 PM

because i wasn't sure if the popular at sunplaza was ready or not, i decided to go to the one at northpoint to get my stuff. while waiting for the train at yck, i saw samantha from 4g. so we waited and boarded tgt. then the yanjie and 2 girls (all from 4g) came to join samantha. there was this guy on the train, probably in his mid 40s, with a belly, he was saying a silent prayer and worshipping in his prayer. you know, like how mrs tan normally does it? with ur hands in the air. yup. he did that. so i guessed he was VERY devoted. then he talked to yanjie and asked him which jc he was from and yanjie, of course was suprised, yet replied,"erm. no, im still in secondary school.".

then this man go on to saying something real absurd like dont go to catholic jc because the abortion rates there is high and asking yanjie what subjects he is taking. and so he said,"chem, physics, amaths.. blah blah.".

then this man go on to asking him some weird maths question about a sphere and find the weight or something. he ended with a,"even a professor can't answer my question. if you can answer , i'll go on to asking something else."

the fact is, there isnt enough infomation given to solving it and even a genius needs a calculator and stationaries to work it out lah.

the man went on in asking questions and yanjie, feeling most absurd said,"it isnt in our syllabus."

and this man was saying,"dont be too clever, always act stupid..", and stuff.

in the end, when the train stopped at yishun, all of us alighted. samantha and i went down the escalator while the remaining 3 changed cabins.

weird huh. beats me.


so, i went to popular and bought the 20m correction tape. then i went back to sunplaza to photocopy the stock notes that i've been owing xiangyi for ages and bought my lunch cum dinner. then i went home, ate, and nap. thats how people put on weight (:

au voirs.


Wednesday, October 4
{ freed on 6:47 PM

oh hohoho. for once, i think i made use of my little intelligence. i was watching "full house" yesterday. then my brother came and said,"you watch somemore, and i shall delete it away..". to my horror, yes, horror, he really did. i checked every folder on the com and couldn't find it. how i wish i could mourn for "full house".. and i was holding this huge grudge against him man, how i wish i can really hate him. last night, to certain extent, he really sucked. not as in literally suck lah. oh you know. but i know it was for my good. even a idiot knows that i shouldn't be watching these kind of dramas now lah. luckily, phebe has a copy. and i was trying ways and means to download the file from bittorrent. it sure wasnt easy. plus, i wasnt that familarised with bittorrent yet, although i have used it before. fine. so, finally, i downloaded the file and put them all into a playlist, and saved them in my own folder. of course, i deleted all relevent "evidence". heh heh heh.

i hope my brother doesn't read this. :X

school was boring today. there was no chapel and reading periods. but the period before tbs came in was so damn peaceful, so damn condusive for studying. for once, i wonder if i was in the wrong class. i did a little study. during history, we were talking about Millenium Institution. it seems like a good choice. L1R4, 5 to 20. a 3 year JC course, that includes in a diploma. and once again, i set my goals right. but i was having a little headache, perhaps from all the late nights recently so i napped. and i was woken up by charmaine i think, saying that my palm is turning blue and stuff. sorry for getting so agitated man. sorry.

so, had lunch in school with cheyenne, ahma and phebe. then we went to sunplaza. ahma borrowed chinese novels, again. then when i got home, i saw this guy talking to my dad. okay. i couldnt be sure whether he was just a friend or my paternal side's 3rd uncle, or my father's elder brother. so, i just called out,"san per.". as in "3rd uncle" in chinese.

then my dad answered," he isnt san per. he is my friend."

like so embarrassing lah. then i just went straight into my room. ooops. but i still called him uncle when he left. ahh. fancy making this kind of mistake. wt. but cant blame me lah. it was like bright behind them so i couldnt see exactly how the uncle looked like. but of course, i do regconise my dad.

i guess i cant pon tml. heard from mr wee say he's going to go through the folio and exam papers. so.. 5 periods of dnt again. boring~ and friday has got pac and physics. so i shldnt be skipping school as well. till next monday bah. heh heh heh..

i always see this canberra secondary guy on my way to the mrt in the morning. always, practically everyday. if im early, i will see him at road junctions or under flats. else, i'll see him sitting at this shelter thingy, no idea waiting for who. poor boy. haha.

anw, my penpal replied me already. so, he got my addie from the teenage, published 2 years ago. and i was thinking, might as well don't send me any letter. perhaps i won't be replying him that soon. the most is after O levels then i reply him loh. too bad. but, maybe he is bored lah, thats why he writes to me.

oh wells.

O levels grand counting down!!

au voirs!